Saturday, September 29, 2012

Heartbreaking

No words to express my pain.

Things did not go well at my husbands scan.

We are in thick of battle. It is on. We can not miss a beat.

It appears it has spread near the pancreas and spleen. Two doctors said
they had never seen a Sarcoma do this. One doc felt like it most likely
is the Sarcoma. We are praying is not. There is a slim chance it another form of cancer which would be better than a reoccurance.

Fear is thick and I know that does not come from God. I am lost in despair. Trying to functionn and find my fight. I know God is still here. Joshua 1:9

Need to breathe and pray. I don't understand why this is all happening.

We were one week shy of making it to 1 year with clear scans. My heart aches.

There will no Girlfriends Run (again) this year. As my husband will most likely be going into surgery that week.

I know God is bigger and I do not know his plan BUT I do know I will not stop praying and crying our my hearts desire. We have not talked to kids as we want to wait until we have more information. Praying for their protection through all of this.

PRAY Warriors I need you.  Much Love.

36 comments:

XLMIC said...

You and your family will remain solidly in my thoughts, in my heart, and in my prayers. I have no words other than "i love you" right now. I wish I were there to just wrap my arms around you and allow you to dissolve into tears while feeling yourself surrounded by love and strength...the love and strength is always there, but I wish I could give you the tangible sensation. We are all here for you, Harmony. Do lean on us.

Caroline said...

I will pray for you. I am so sorry you are in so much pain and that you guys have another fight ahead of you. I like Marjorie have no words. I am sad. I hope the doctors have the answers..the right ones ..we are here for you that is true.

Nicole Wagner said...

OH Harm. I can't even imagine. I don't know what to say except I will pray for you. every day. I don't understand why this happens either. My heart aches for you. :(

fancy nancy said...

Oh Harmony!!! I wish I could give you a HUGE hug!!! I am so sorry that you all are going through all of this! You are in my prayers as always....peace and wisdom!

Running Librarian said...

sending prayers your way. Stay strong!

Elizabeth said...

you and your family will be in my constant prayers. i am so sorry you are going through this-and like you said, we can never understand why God does what he does and what his Plan is. I wish I was closer and could do something, anything, to help. hugs.

Erica Elia said...

Oh I am so sorry to hear this. I am sending many prayers your way. Erica

Star said...

Praying, praying, praying friend!

Lee Ann said...

Harmony, I'm Meredith McNair's friend and I just want you to know I'm running Girlfriends for you. I'm in pain and when the day rolls around it will be 2.5 weeks since I laced up my shoes. But, all 13.1 miles (and it will take me a while) I will be praying for you and your family. When I hurt or think I can't go on, I will dig deeper, and pray harder knowing my 13.1 battle is nothing like the one you are fighting.

Praying for you!

Canuck Mom said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I have been following your story for awhile and keeping you all in my prayers. I wish there was something I could say to ease your pain. Life is full of "whys". As a Registered Nurse of many years there are many times I have questioned God and said "why" in regards to things I have seen. When my father had cancer I again wondered "why". I wish there were answers to the "whys". I wish there were words to comfort. May you find comfort in prayer at this time. My thoughts and many prayers are with you.

Heidi @BananaBuzzbomb said...

I know nothing I say can make sure feel better. Just know that we're right here with you every step of the way. xo

stumblingwithperseverance said...

I am so so sorry for this heartbreaking news. Just want you to know I am praying for healing, for peace, for strength. God is Big!!

Tasha @Healthy Diva said...

Harmony you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong and know that you have a lot of people that love and care about you. I wish I could give you a hug right now. XXX

Katie McFarland said...

I can't express the pain I'm feeling for you right now. I'm so sorry to hear this news and I'll pray for you and your family everyday!

Amanda@runninghood said...

Love and Peace and Healing to you Harmony. Words are not enough. I wish I could say the perfect thing to make it all better but I can't...prayer for you.

runninghutch.com said...

I hate to read this and I ache for you. We are praying for you and your husband!

Jess @ Blonde Ponytail said...

My heart breaks for you right now. I will continue to pray and know the fight is on. CANCER sucks.

And, like Marjorie stated, please lean on your friends and community. We love you.

5 Miles Past Empty said...

Praying without ceasing....You are in my thoughts often these days Harmony. You and your husband are the epitome of strength and grace. I know God has his arms around you....keep the faith and keep fighting. We are fighting with you!!

Lisa said...

I am so very sorry to hear this news. Prayers and positive thoughts are coming your way. (((hugs)))

Corey said...

Oh Harmony, my heart hurts so much for you. I hope you can find some peace as you all fight through this and that you remember to take care of yourself so that you can be strong for everyone else. I was praying for you this weekend, without even knowing this, something just told me that you needed it. I will continue to pray for your family.

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry for your bad news. Thinking of you and your family. Sending you infinite amounts of strength and hope. Your online family is here for you.

Emily Keck said...

I am sending prayers your way!

Carla Birnberg said...

Sending you all my prayers.

Mommy Run Fast said...

Oh gosh, Harmony... I am so, so sorry to hear this. Thinking of you and your whole family and sending prayers your way!

Meg ofrunfitkin said...

Sending thoughts of strength and courage to you and your family. The community is here to support you, keep leaning and sharing as you need to.

Colorado Gal said...

You and your family are in my thoughts. Send you all the well wishes in the world.

Dawn said...

I know nothing I say will make anything better, just know that we are all here for you, and that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Dawn said...

I know nothing I say will make anything better, just know that we are all here for you, and that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Haley @ Climb Run Lift Mom said...

So sorry :( I can't even imagine the heartache you must be going thru. You and your family are in my thoughts. Stay strong.

Christine said...

Sending thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

Abby Land said...

I am so sorry. Cancer is such a ridiculously horrible disease. I will be sending prayers your way, nobody should have to go through this.

Mindy's Fitness Journey said...

Be strong Mama! Your readers love you and are here!!! We will be your rock! I am so sorry to hear your news. Praying for you and yours... xoxo

misszippy said...

My heart just breaks for you. And your steadfast faith is incredible. It will carry you through this, as will all the love and support I am sure you are getting. Saying my prayers for your family and sending you big virtual hugs.

Kristen Mercier said...

So sorry to hear this. I will pray for your family too. Cancer sucks and I hate to see anyone struggle with it.

Sara said...

My heart is heavy to read your words. I am thinking of and praying for you and your family. Take care and stay strong.

magdalena glina said...

Sending more prayers your way!