Monday, October 8, 2012
I feel like I need to write but I don't know what to write.
We continue to get tough news and seems things just keep getting worse.
We decided to get a second opinion over in Seattle. 6 hours from our home.
We again hear and know that what they are seeing is bad.
Sarcoma is 1% of all cancers.
Leiomyosarcoma is 10-15% of that 1% and having it originate in the bone is 1% of that. This is not new information but with a POSSIBLE reoccurance it reminds how tough this fight really is.
Confused? Overwhelmed? I am.
Survival rates are not good with Sarcoma.
We will have surgery in the coming weeks where they will take whatever they need to take.
We will wait and PRAY that they get clean margins and come back and say they were wrong. That what the thought was a reoccurance is something different.
We just want this end. We want healing. We need a miracle.
My husband is a fighter but the pain of daily moments can be too much.
I know people say that cancer sucks but it is so much bigger than that.
Losing your keys sucks.
Missing a flight sucks.
Running out of gas sucks.
Being injured sucks.
Cancer on the other hand is one the most paralyzing and painful things in the world. I can't breathe. I am scared. I ache for my children. I ache for my husband. I am struggling to find the light. I don't know what to do.
I am praying each moment that God takes the darkness away as I know only He can.
Please pray for protection for my children. Gudiance for how to navigate through this pain and most of all HEALING and a MIRACLE. We will not give up.