I have been swamped with school work which by the way is how I start every post! UGH!! I am having writers block and have been stuck on a blank screen for more than an hour.
I am feeling a bit attacked and having a pity party.
I am dealing with some family stress that seems to inrease as we approach the holidays.
I have Girlfriends half in two weeks and as of yesterday my hip has decided to completely freak out.
so I am resting and not running.
I am doubting in my ability to swing work and school.
The reality is that all of that STUFF is just a cover for what is really bothering me. Not only bothering me but making me physically ill. Tomorrow is the scan day for my hubby. The day we pray that all is well
I am trying to stay strong and postive and have faith that God will make good out of all of this and that we will walk out of the appointments in tact and with the words CLEAR scan.
BUT my life has been tainted a bit since that horrible day when I got a call from my husband and he was unable to speak. A nurse had to take the phone from him and told me to come to the hospital immediately. Life came to a screeching halt that day. I have wanted to reverse time and wish that phone call away many times but forever what reason that is not part of the plan.
I know how FAST life can change so one moment in a doctors office is terrifying.
Please pray for my husband. We will get through tomorrow. God is faithful.
Perspective will return soon and I will feel more like myself. I have so much to be thankful for but today feeling a bit buried. God please help light my way and carry me through these deep waters!