Thursday, September 27, 2012

Just Venting

I have been swamped with school work which by the way is how I start every post! UGH!! I am having writers block and have been stuck on a blank screen for more than an hour.

I am feeling a bit attacked and having a pity party.

I am dealing with some family stress that seems to inrease as we approach the holidays.
I have Girlfriends half in two weeks and as of yesterday my hip has decided to completely freak out.
so I am resting and not running.
I am doubting in my ability to swing work and school.

The reality is that all of that STUFF is just a cover for what is really bothering me. Not only bothering me but making me physically ill. Tomorrow is the scan day for my hubby. The day we pray that all is well

I am trying to stay strong and postive and have faith that God will make good out of all of this and that we will walk out of the appointments in tact and with the words CLEAR scan.

BUT my life has been tainted a bit since that horrible day when I got a call from my husband and he was unable to speak. A nurse had to take the phone from him and told me to come to the hospital immediately. Life came to a screeching halt that day. I have wanted to reverse time and wish that phone call away many times but forever what reason that is not part of the plan.

I know how FAST life can change so one moment in a doctors office is terrifying.

Please pray for my husband. We will get through tomorrow. God is faithful.

Perspective will return soon and I will feel more like myself.  I have so much to be thankful for but today feeling a bit buried. God please help light my way and carry me through these deep waters!

11 comments:

stumblingwithperseverance said...

Harmony, I'm so sorry for all that is going on in your life, yikes!! I'm praying for you, Harmony, your husband, and your children, for your schoolwork, for tomorrow with your husband, for your hip/running. Praying for peace, strength, wisdom, trust, hope, rest - a resting in a good God and an always faithful God in the midst of the yuck of our lives. Praying for clear scan tomorrow and a smile in your heart. :)

Amanda said...

I'll be praying tonight for you and your husband. Praying for his awesome healing in your life and know that your friends, far and near, love you and are thinking of you. "Hold on to the promises, Hold on to the promises, Jesus is the life so hold tight, Hold on to the promises"

Tasha @Healthy Diva said...

I will be thinking about you, your hubby & beautiful family tomorrow.

I hope that your hip is nothing serious so that you can run girlfriends. I love that race!

Elizabeth said...

praying for you and your husband and the results. hugs.

Amanda@runninghood said...

Hugs to you Harmony. So much love from Oregon.

XLMIC said...

big big big HUGS!

and remember...the don't run, run faster plan is pretty amazing ;-)

hope your hip is shipshape soon. holding you and your family very close in my heart :)

Johann said...

Thinking of and praying for you. Take care!

Jessica (Pace of Me) said...

i am thinking of you and your family harmony, and sending all of my LOVE. you are beautiful inside and out.

Happy Running Mama said...

Praying for you and your family, Harmony.

Marnee said...

Love you Harm and I believe the Lord has got this!

Run with Jess said...

Many prayers headed your way. so sorry your family is having to go thru this.