Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Missing

Surgery went well. Hospital stay was rough. Lots of pain. So horrible seeing my husband suffer. We are out now and having to stay in the area for another week.
That is another week away from our home and kids.
I don't feel strong....but I know I am. I need to find a way to channel all this saddness and anger into something that will help me battle on.

It is tough.

Missing my kids

Missing my runs

Missing my friends

Missing my husbands smile

Missing my old life

Praying for God's peace and strength. We have been loved by many who have helped me when I have felt paralyzed and unsure of how I was going to get through the next hour. This is a time in our life when it becomes clear who is there for you and those who have other priorities. Trying to work through all of that and long for the day where we can bless and care for others.

If you are running, biking or moving in any way...enjoy it and SWEAT some for me!
Much love!
H Love






13 comments:

Michelle said...

Totally thinking of you and your family EVERY day. I can't run right now, but that seems awfully petty to complain about when you guys are treasuring and fighting for each day. My teaching partner just had her cancer return for the 4th time...this time, they have labeled her "terminal"....I hate that word. Know that my heart is with you on more than one level. Keep on keeping on....I know you will.

Tasha Malcolm said...

Thinking about you lots. So glad that surgery went good, but sorry that your husband was having so much pain. I hope that you can get back to Pullman soon to be with your friends and children. Keep being strong. So many people are thinking and caring about your right now.

Caroline said...

Dear Harmony....I think about you EVERY Day. I am so sad you are going through this, I think about us talking in the hotel room in Seattle and you were hopeful and I am so MAD that now you are not in a good place....I am happy surgery went well. I hope you will stop missing all the things you love soon..very soon

Anonymous said...

Harmony, thanks for sharing… for sharing your life, your heart. Praying so much for you every day - for Ryan, for your children, for healing, for God's strength. Praying you get back home soon. Every run I take is for you - it's been my prayer time for the Davis family. Your life has so changed from just a bit ago . . . I pray you remember that in the midst of change God remains the same - yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I ache for you as a wife, as a mother, as a friend, as a runner … prayers continue!! Much love...

Jessica (Pace of Me) said...

harmony, i am thinking of you and your family every single day. sending prayers and love and healing happy thoughts. you ARE strong, so so very strong. i pray that you will be on the other side of this very soon. lots of love.

Stacie said...

Continually thinking of you and praying for you and your family. It breaks my heart that you guys are going through this. Continue to stay strong. You are amazing. Know that we are here if you need us. Love you guys!

Jamie said...

Just stumbled across your blog. Sorry to hear about what you and yours are currently going through.

Thoughts and prayers your way!

((hugz))
Jamie

Ricole said...

I'm SO glad the surgery went well. I have been thinking of you nonstop - you are SO strong. Keep praying! I will too.

XLMIC said...

Each and every day, I send you all love and well wishes. You are always close in my heart. I hope all the joy returns soon.

Unknown said...

Love you sweet Harm. Praying for this week for you and Ryan to have some wonderful moments of joy. Cling to our savior, he's the only one who knows EXACTLY how you are feeling.

Kris said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Love you sister, Jesus will carry you all through.

Psalm 23 NLT
The LORD is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid,
for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff
protect and comfort me. You prepare a feast for me
in the presence of my enemies. You honor me by anointing my head with oil. My cup overflows with blessings. Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD forever.

Elizabeth said...

you and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers-and will continue to be! i hope you can get back to your kids and a smiling husband soon. xo

Corrina said...

I've been praying for you and your husband. God is going to use this trial in ways you can't imagine now. Often our greatest tests are the greatest testimonies to those around us. He is with you.