Hello to all my bloggy buddies and readers! It has been a long time since my last post but life has had me in the trenches. I am writing this in my husbands hospital room. Many of you have expressed prayers and thoughts for my hubby and it really has meant so much.
It has been a tough 5 weeks and still doesn't seem real. My husband was diagnosed with a very rare form of soft muscle tissue cancer that originated in his bone. It is a type of sarcoma and icky stuff. We have been on an emotional roller coaster for weeks as we tried to gather information. At first we thought he was going to loose his leg, and then his life. Chemo, then no chemo. These words and moments have changed me and my husband.
His cancer does not typically respond to chemo or radiation. This is scary as we don't have many tools to fight. Fortunately at this time suergery was our friend and the only option. Monday he had part of his femur and knee removed. This took the tumor OUT! We are now on post op, day 2 and he is feeling OK. The surgery was complicated but so far it seems as if everything is working well. He now has a titanium type prosthectic in most of his leg and knee.
Runs has have been few and far between but when I have been able to find a way to get some miles in I have been blessed. Sometimes I have ran alone and cried out to God and in the same moment felt his presence through the wind around me. Other times I have ran with a group of women who let me just be a runner for a few hours and that has felt really good.
Life has changed and has become all the more dear. My three blessings are hanging in there and ADORE their Daddy so much! We both can not wait to get home to them.
During this nightmare we have been constantly covered in Christ's love. Friends have gone above and beyond and touched our lives deeply with their selflessness and love. I have so many emotions and try to focus all my energy on the present. The future is scary and unknown as we are not sure if the cancer spread microscopically. Scans are in our future and we must PRAY that each one comes back clear. I have to remind myself not to spend time worrying about tomorrow. My hubby is in major training now...working on walking, healing and trying to find a new normal. His bravery and determination is amazing. He has a heart of a champion and I love with every fiber of my soul. We have a long race ahead of us and our endurance has been building. We are becoming stronger and know that in our weakness God is glorified as he is what sustains us daily.
Why is the happening?? I don't know. I wish I could make it stop and go back, but I can't. That is not in the plan. God is in control and I am hanging on to his promises and love to get me through each moment.
So hang in there...and I hope life will settle and the miles and races will return one day soon. I am still running and have a little dream of still being able to hit 1,000 miles this year. It is kind of a pipe dream, but why not dream. I know the race I am running seems to be all uphill with unexected potholes along the way...BUT runners are strong right...and we will run this race. Thanks again for your prayers!
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