Thursday, November 10, 2011

A Long Race

Hello to all my bloggy buddies and readers! It has been a long time since my last post but life has had me in the trenches. I am writing this in my husbands hospital room. Many of you have expressed prayers and thoughts for my hubby and it really has meant so much.

It has been a tough 5 weeks and still doesn't seem real. My husband was diagnosed with a very rare form of soft muscle tissue cancer that originated in his bone. It is a type of sarcoma and icky stuff. We have been on an emotional roller coaster for weeks as we tried to gather information. At first we thought he was going to loose his leg, and then his life. Chemo, then no chemo. These words and moments have changed me and my husband.

His cancer does not typically respond to chemo or radiation. This is scary as we don't have many tools to fight. Fortunately at this time suergery was our friend and the only option. Monday he had part of his femur and knee removed. This took the tumor OUT! We are now on post op, day 2 and he is feeling OK. The surgery was complicated but so far it seems as if everything is working well. He now has a titanium type prosthectic in most of his leg and knee.

Runs has have been few and far between but when I have been able to find a way to get some miles in I have been blessed. Sometimes I have ran alone and cried out to God and in the same moment felt his presence through the wind around me. Other times I have ran with a group of women who let me just be a runner for a few hours and that has felt really good.

Life has changed and has become all the more dear. My three blessings are hanging in there and ADORE their Daddy so much! We both can not wait to get home to them.
During this nightmare we have been constantly covered in Christ's love. Friends have gone above and beyond and touched our lives deeply with their selflessness and love. I have so many emotions and try to focus all my energy on the present. The future is scary and unknown as we are not sure if the cancer spread microscopically. Scans are in our future and we must PRAY that each one comes back clear. I have to remind myself not to spend time worrying about tomorrow. My hubby is in major training now...working on walking, healing and trying to find a new normal. His bravery and determination is amazing. He has a heart of a champion and I love with every fiber of my soul. We have a long race ahead of us and our endurance has been building. We are becoming stronger and know that in our weakness God is glorified as he is what sustains us daily.

Why is the happening?? I don't know. I wish I could make it stop and go back, but I can't. That is not in the plan. God is in control and I am hanging on to his promises and love to get me through each moment.

So hang in there...and I hope life will settle and the miles and races will return one day soon. I am still running and have a little dream of still being able to hit 1,000 miles this year. It is kind of a pipe dream, but why not dream. I know the race I am running seems to be all uphill with unexected potholes along the way...BUT runners are strong right...and we will run this race. Thanks again for your prayers!

To pray and learn more about my hubby's fight you can follow us on TEAM DAVIS on FB.



16 comments:

Amanda said...

Still praying for strength Harmony. Also, that God's plan will be revealed to something perfect and beautiful. Keep holding onto Him, the one who is bigger than cancer and anything this world can throw at us. I will be on my knees for your family until the day your joy is restored.

Kerrie T. said...

I think of and pray for you guys every day. <3

Michelle said...

Praying for you ALL!

Amanda@runninghood said...

Thank you for this Harmony. So much love surrounding you...so many people are sending love and prayers...us included. Huge Hug from Portland.

XLMIC said...

Hugs, love and strength from me to you all. I think of you constantly, praying and hoping.

Love,
Marjorie

Meredith said...

Love you friend! Praying so much!!

Kayla said...

We often wonder why God gives us these trials to go through and we often never figure it out, but I have no doubt that you will come out of this stronger than before. It will not be easy but as the saying goes, "If He brings you to it, He'll bring you through it!" Thinking and praying for you, your husband and your family!

SupermomE12 said...

I am so sorry your family is going through this. I am praying for strength for you and your husband, for healing and health for your husband and for your family to be lifted up in prayer with comfort and peace in this tough time. Hang in there. Hugs!

Janell said...

Praying for you and your family during this difficult time. Hope you can feel God's arms wrapped around your family!

Corrina Beana said...

What an incredible turn of events you've had in your life. I'm sure you can't even wrap your head around it. Thanks for sharing a piece of it here. I am praying for strength and peace and healing. As he did in Genesis 1:1, God is hovering over the darkness---and the light will break forth. He is with you.

Sara said...

Please know you and your husband and family are still in my thoughts and prayers. This post breaks my heart, and I am praying you continue to find comfort and strength in the Lord.

Much love to you from one runner to the next.

5 Miles Past Empty said...

Sending prayers nonstop! You both are so beautiful and inspirational, a true testimony to love and faith.

Nicole Wagner said...

I think about you daily harmony. Praying for your whole family. Xxxxxxxx

Molly said...

Harmony, I have been thinking of you and praying for you since I heard about your husband. And I will continue to do so my friend!

Marlene said...

Harmony, I have been thinking of you and your family often. Good wishes and prayers for all of you. You guys have the strength and will to win this race!

Kris said...

Praying for you, your hubby and kiddos. God IS on your side and your hubby sounds like a fighter and I believe those tests will come back clear.
Romans 8:31-39
"What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."