Well this week has been tough for me. There have been some major changes in my life in the last month or two and I have been pushing through but for some reason this week is all hit home. LONG STORY! Changes can be challenging and tough but often bring about growth. What you leave behind is still there and good but maybe not what you need. Kind of feels like a loss of sorts. As I have been dealing with that "life" stuff...it has affected my running.
So the last two days I have been hard on myself and doubting that I have the discipline needed to train for my second marathon. My Coach picked up on my feelings and suggested that maybe I run a more local marathon. Eugene was in my heart but to experience it alone and without family was started to bother me. I chose Eugene for many reasons but one is that I want to be successful. I have friends running a local one in May in Spokane. You may know one...bathing suit model, speedster and amazing athlete Blonde Ponytail.
This has got me thinking again. Why am I so worried about failing? I mean...I am running a freaking marathon!!!!!! How can I fail? So as I was grumbling about the house, it was time to help Lovely L study her verse for AWANA.
Here's the verse
2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me.
UMMMMMMM.....OK. My bad!
This struck a cord and really just made want to cry...to release the stress, the loss, the fears. All I need is God's grace and his power is made perfect in my weakness. WOW!! I like the idea of the power of Christ resting on me. Such a warm picture of strength and protection. Sharing your weakness and ALLOWING yourself to be WEAK leaves you vulnerable or gives you freedom?
I want to hold these words in my mind and heart and those moments when I let fear take over or I get in my funks...I can remember that God's grace is all I need! Modeling for my kids is huge...and I want them to know who and what my POWER source is!
What do you think? How does this verse speak to you? Do you share your weakness?
Why or why not? I would love to hear your thoughts!
Thinking about this verse and having good cry....and I feel much better~
This morning I ran my 12 X 200 HILLS and felt strong! So I thinking....Windermere Marathon 5/12 may be in my sights....I think I will sleep on it!