Blessings

I am baaaack. The last several weeks have been a whirlwind with many unexpected blessings along the way. It has reminded me again how much I am not in control. God has a plan. In late summer my husband knew there was a chance that he would be taking a trip to Savannah, Georgia for work. Even though we knew the kids would be in school we decided to try to make it work as a family trip as well. I have family near Atlanta and thought it would be fun to explore while my hubby was working. We had planned to go back to Atlanta and finish the week there...but God had other plans.

We did not know that just a month later he would have a scan showing that the cancer had returned. Fast forward through another surgery and change in diagnosis and here we are...facing 6-7 months of the most toxic chemo protocol, being hospitalized close to three weeks a month. Through all of this we have had a strong support system. I am not really sure how it all happened but somehow a group of people (that is still unknown) made it possible for our family to squeeze in a quick Disney World trip before chemo while we were already down that way. I had mixed emotions about such generosity but felt like I had to surrender. I am not in control. I wake up wanting my old life and routine back but those days are gone. There are things that are happening that I try to wish away everyday. Our trip was a GIFT. Exploring Georgia with family, meeting my new nephew, fish fry and grits (lots of grits) and finally the grand surprise of Disney was priceless. We played hard together as a family. With every smile or laugh I prayed for a thousand more. It was truly such a gift. My children adore their father. He is an amazing, strong man.

Today we are on day two of chemo and stuck in a depressing hospital.It is scary to see the drugs going into my hubby. I am praying that each drop is doing it's job and killing anything unhealthy. We will go home in a few days and I will take care of him. Hoping and praying I have the endurance to balance it all.