So many posts about thankfulness this week. It has been nice to read and hear about how others are taking take to reflect. I have found that even on our darkest, scariest days that God always gives us a glimpse of the what we still have. Even though there are many, many days that I get caught up with what life used to be He always gives me a glimpse of what we still have.
This thanksgiving didn't really feel very different for me. I feel like I have been a constant state of thanks for the last year. Each day I am with my husband I am thankful. This is not to say I don't worry or get angry but I have learned that I can not stay in those places too long. I been gaining strength from the truth that God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Even though I LONG for yesterdays I know we must march on.
I am praying for a miracle and in the last few weeks I have decided to climb out of this hole. We have a huge uphill battle with chemo coming up and frankly I have let myself get out of shape....spiritually and physically. I have let anger and depression lead to extra pounds and isolation.
So I have a plan...as uncomfortable and challenging as it may be.
I have started a bible study that is pretty darn cool so far. It is called #SheReadsTruth if you want to check out. I am a little out of my comfort zone but know that God has placed me there so I will give it a shot.
I have slowly started running again. My foot seems to be tolerating the miles so I am crossing my fingers I can increase my mileage. I sooo miss my long runs. I am debating on signing up for a race.
I am swamped with end of semester projects and know that next semester will be crazy as well.
I also know I am going to be spending a lot of time at the hospital. I will be parenting solo in a sense and will also need to take care of my husband. It is going to be tough.
HOWEVER tough does not mean impossible.
So I am thinking about doing a local half in March and then possibly a full in May. It seems crazy to even type that because I know deep down how quickly life can change and in reality the circumstances we are dealing with DO NOT allow you to "plan" anything. So I know I have to be OK with the fact that IF I do sign up for a race...I may never make it to the start line.
The flip of this reality....is WHAT IF I do and WHAT IF my hubby could be there at the finish? Just the hope of that makes me excited but I know that the ugly face of cancer can put a big kink in our "plans".
So what do you think. Too ambitious? Reality Check? Denial? Other ideas?
Either way today has been GOOD. I was blessed to spend another Thanksgiving with my husband and watch our Cougars beat those stinkin' Huskies!! Apple Cup Victory dance with the fam!
Hope everyone enjoys a relaxing weekend and don't forget to check out P.V. Body HERE and get yourself hooked up with some new digs!!