Monday, June 4, 2012

Tossed Salad & 200 Miles




My life has been feeling a bit scattered and unfocused. I have not been as focused on my training as I would like to due to life, work and school taking my time and energy. I kind of lost it on Saturday...or in running terms...I hit the wall. I was feeling overwhelmed. How could I ever swim a MILE in July? How would I ever find time to run? Would my foot ever feel better? My eating choices STINK. My husband had been so busy I was feeling lonely. Will I ever see my running buddies again? I am not cut out to do homework for 10 hours straight. Wah, Wah, Wah... And then it hit me...and it was almost comical! Seriously, none of this matters. I was busy being focused on feeling like a "failure" and not being able to do it all. I have a full plate and instead...I want to give THANKS for that plate. I am thankful I have been given opportunties to do crazy things like SWIM a freaking MILE and go back to school while being a Mommy to 3 kiddos. I am thankful that my husband is HERE and ALIVE and working. I am happy I have two little feet..even if one of them is cranky most of the time. I love my running buddies! I need to remember that tomorrow is a new day and maybe I will surprise myself and eat just a little bit better. The last six months of life has made me go to places I never wanted to go and life feels fragile at times. I know I have to work everyday to remember that and not get caught up in the petty things that can bring me down. So enough of that. Life is feeling like a Tossed Salad. A little bit of everything being thrown in the mix and I have decide how I will respond. Bottom line...the stress of grad school will go away, I will survive my triathalon, I do eat my greens, and my husband is a freaking rock star to rally in so many ways this year! I just needed to get that off my chest. I have been loving my long runs and occassional bike rides! Swimming still is OUT there but the family schedule just isn't working with pool time...yet. God definitely met me Sunday and reminded me how much He loves me TODAY....not after a training plan or meeting a goal but just for being ME! Ahhh, good reminder! WEeekend workout...10 miles/Garmin Free! Hour on the Trainer! Shred Level 3! Broke 200 miles! Hoping you all have a blessed week. Love yourself for where you are right now!

9 comments:

Amanda@runninghood said...

Yes yes yes. Needed this one. Thanks for your wisdom here Harmony.

Tasha @Healthy Diva said...

I admire you for being able to juggle so many things at the same time. Being a mom AND going to school is hard work. Add training in that and you are beyond busy! I am keeping my fingers crossed that you can get into the pool soon.

fancy nancy said...

Life certainly is a tossed salad...just add dressing!! It is such an inspiration to me to read each time your perspective on the last 6 months. You're real about it and I appreciate that!

Kris said...

What a refreshing post Harmony. You're right we need to be thankful and not feel like failures. I fight with those feelings too and Gods always is the one to bring me out. I love how He loves us :) this scripture kept playing though my mind while running my half and this post reminded me of it to:

Romans 8:31-32 NASB

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things?

Corey said...

Harmony, this post gave me chills. Thank you for reminding me what is important :)

Canuck Mom said...

Thanks for this wonderful post. I needed to read that today. Coming back from injury I do not run as fast right now and I have to love where I am now.:)

Marnee said...

Oh Harm you are a breath of fresh air for me. Thank you for laying it out there and I admire so much your ability to see perspectives. Love you sweet friend and I can't wait to see you in a month at your tri!

Jess @ Blonde Ponytail said...

I was hoping no p*rn search engines found your blog b/c of your title ha ha!

You always amaze me with your strength and perspective!

Julie D. said...

Needed this today (this month really). You are a rockstar and your weekend work out sounds like some bad choices in the food dept. isn't going to hurt ya. :) rockstar! I really understand the stress eating though...how does rice krispie treats for breakfast and hamburger, french fries, and frosty for lunch, sound? Ya, unfortunately those were my choices for the day. Ugh. Tomorrow IS a new day.