1. Extra Weight (Where did that come from?) Oh yeah, can't use your feet, stress eating and that darn black hole I fell into.
2. Heavy breathing. When did 3 miles feel tough?
3. Lack of confidence.
Today is my husband's birthday! My plan was to wait on him and pamper him (which I did) When we woke up it was beautiful. Of course my "runners mind" thought I need to run but I didn't want to leave my hubby. He requested a couple Krispy Kreme Doughnuts and tall glass of milk. It only took him a few bites before he said "Aren't you going to go try to run?" "It is a beautiful day."
Hello...selfless LOVE during a time when it could be so easy to behave in other ways.
It almost made me tear up. It made me think of almost a year ago today he was RUNNING his FIRST 5K. He trained and did it! I was so proud of him. Ran the whole way! As I looked at him today on his birthday it made me angry to think he won't be able to run anymore 5K's. His leg is blistered, red, painful and tight from the radiation. He has lost ground physically not being able to do his PT due to the pain. I think we both mourn the loss of being able run together.
We did the Warrior Dash last July before he was diagnosed and it is probably one of the highlights of our marriage!
So really those things I listed above; weight gain, out of shape and slow really means NOTHING. I was RUNNING...PERIOD. My hubby can't run, along with so many other people. I know as athletes we complain and whine we are injured but the reality is that running is usually still there waiting for our return.
When I ran today I didn't look at my pace. I just ran. It was my first run outside "post neuroma/PF". I was happy to see my pace and made a promise that this isn't half of what I can do. I have more to do, more to give and change in this world and I feel as my feet are going to help me get there.
No matter what my hubby and I have each other, faith and DETERMINATION!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETY! You are my Hero!!