Saturday, March 10, 2012

Starting Over

Taking two months off to REST your feet can leave you with a few things:
1. Extra Weight (Where did that come from?) Oh yeah, can't use your feet, stress eating and that darn black hole I fell into.

2. Heavy breathing. When did 3 miles feel tough?

3. Lack of confidence.

Today is my husband's birthday! My plan was to wait on him and pamper him (which I did) When we woke up it was beautiful. Of course my "runners mind" thought I need to run but I didn't want to leave my hubby. He requested a couple Krispy Kreme Doughnuts and tall glass of milk. It only took him a few bites before he said "Aren't you going to go try to run?" "It is a beautiful day."

Hello...selfless LOVE during a time when it could be so easy to behave in other ways.

It almost made me tear up. It made me think of almost a year ago today he was RUNNING his FIRST 5K. He trained and did it! I was so proud of him. Ran the whole way! As I looked at him today on his birthday it made me angry to think he won't be able to run anymore 5K's. His leg is blistered, red, painful and tight from the radiation. He has lost ground physically not being able to do his PT due to the pain. I think we both mourn the loss of being able run together.
We did the Warrior Dash last July before he was diagnosed and it is probably one of the highlights of our marriage!

So really those things I listed above; weight gain, out of shape and slow really means NOTHING. I was RUNNING...PERIOD. My hubby can't run, along with so many other people. I know as athletes we complain and whine we are injured but the reality is that running is usually still there waiting for our return.

When I ran today I didn't look at my pace. I just ran. It was my first run outside "post neuroma/PF". I was happy to see my pace and made a promise that this isn't half of what I can do. I have more to do, more to give and change in this world and I feel as my feet are going to help me get there.

No matter what my hubby and I have each other, faith and DETERMINATION!!



Amanda@runninghood said...

Yes, this is only part of what you can do Harmony! Beautiful. So glad you got to get out and run and at a great pace too. Happy birthday to Ryan. Love to you both.

Ryan said...

Thanks honey. You are the sweetest. I love you!

Caroline said...

happy birthday to Ryan!
wishing you many many many more birthdays with your family!!!!

Mel -Tall Mom on the Run said...

Savor the run!! HUGS!

Kris said...

Your hubby is such a loving man! Tearing up reading this, I love how he thought of you and told you to run even on his bday. You are right let's run for those who can't and be thankful for what we have :) Happy Birthday Ryan may you have many more birthdays to come!!

{will run for margaritas} said...

Girl, you are AMAZING! Such an amazing wife, with a pretty awesome husband. Happy Birthday to Ryan - and so cool that he recognized you needed a little "me" time on his special day. Hope you are doing great.

PS - YOU ROCKED that run!!! xo

Jess @ Blonde Ponytail said...

Fabulous pace!! YOu are going to get "it" back so fast. SO thankful to run with you today--you are amazing--I don't know how you balance it all. An inspiration. So excited for your journey with Rev3!

Marlene said...

Happy Birthday Ryan! What a guy. So glad you were able to get out there and soak up that gorgeous day. You will get your fitness back, I promise!

Laura Boll said...

Happy birthday to your husband! I know that pull between staying home with the family and getting the run in, especially on special days like that! Glad you could get out and enjoy running for running's sake. Sounds perfect.

Sara said...

This is a beautiful post. I ran yesterday for the first time in awhile and felt good. I'm glad to know I can relate to other people out there, like you. Happy Birthday to your husband! :)

Julie D. said...

happy belated to your husband, Harmony! A hero, he is. Amazing run. You'd think you never even skipped a beat.